The Doctorandus of Life !

YEARS AGO , in the height of the well-defined "War of Idiology" , and as a boy of 14, I was often to Saigon without any permission from my parents by byke, merely to read some chapters from some books in the once-upon-a-time famous bookstore "Khai Tri" . The reason was, I did not have money to by ... everything !
Since then, I have no greater desire then to be graduated somewhere in Europe, or in The U.S.A of course.



SUMMER 1989, I was very proud with my graduation in Computer Science: After so many years, My desire is fulfilled !
Finally I was ... Someone !.
I was one of the first marathon-learners and I had more then enough credits to be graduated...
I was one of the best graduateds in (Parallel) Distributed Algorithms and (Parallel) Distributed Systems. Beside that, my interests were also in almost every other fields in Computer Science: Grammars, Programming Languages, Compilers,Artifitial Intelligence ( Well, it wouldn't do any real harm to be a little ...Great Mouth ...)...



ONE year after my graduation, I was still jobless !
I was desoriented. I did not know what to do with my life: I was half-dead and half-alive ...
Days after days, I was sleepless and sinking in the feeling of inferiority, like a stone along the streets ...

AFTER my awakening, my life is days by days ... in order again: I am again a Doctorandus in Computer Science !

What about today ?




Today, I wake up (almost) everyday in very pleasant feeling : Science is fully integrated in my life: The way I walk, the way I sit, the way I sleep,the way I think and even the way I am in ... the Toilet...

Life in Awareness is nothing but Life in Science !(*)

TODAY I am no longer merely a Doctorandus in Algorithms, in Architectures, in Structures, in Programming languages ...
I am also a Doctorandus in ... everything: in Meditation, in Buddhism, in Thinking, in Cooking, in Washing, in Cleaning the house, in Reading ...

TODAY, I am a fully-valued Doctorandus: a Doctorandus of ... EVerything !
And if we could upgrade "me" a little, like a ... Pentum 3 from ... Pentum 2, I am today already a ... Doctor of Life !



IF MY Jobless-in-Profession is a punishing from ... God(**), then it is the greatest mistake that HE never saw before. Without my Jobless-in-profession, I would still wander in the state of Unknowning(***) and still very busy with making money, nice cars, great houses (****)...
I would still be in the Space of Dead or Alive, of Tomorrow or Yesterday ... And I would still not in the state of enjoying magnificient lifes today ...



WITHOUT my years in Jobless-in-profession, I would still merely a Doctorandus-of-Something and a Doctorandus-of-Nothing-Else as some years ago ...
And I would never find my way back at Home !
Today I am a Doctorandus of ... Everything ...
Today I am already liberated from Time ...

© Octer 2001, Amsterdam,
Nguyen Sau Rieng

NOTES :


Observe that, this is an Implication, not an Equivalence : If you are in Full Awareness, you could perform many tasks exellent. But when you devote your mind totally in something, in study or in doing something for example, you could forget everything else and all other senses could be totally shut down from the Reality, you are not in full Awareness...

It is a ...Joke ! : If there were God, HE would probably be in the Empty Space or somewhere Beyond-That.
This is a very serious understanding, because Good or Bad, Success or Failure, Rewarding or Punishing ... are merely defined in the Space of Duality by the thinking mind : They could never belong to the language of ... God !
As a result of that, no one could ever do anything in the Name of God , even Punishing or Rewarding.
The way of God is therefore The-Way-It-Is, another way of speaking,it is the way of Science !

You could never throw something directly into the sky, and pray for God so that it never falls down again ...

The state of Unknowing : One striking example of the State of Unknowing is the way we are usually laying sleeping on bed, with crossed legs, with crossed arms ... and laying aside. Another way of speaking, we are usually in bed in fotus position without any Awareness, and full of ... Imagination ...

This does not mean making money, nice cars, great houses ... are out of ... my life ! Denying the existences of others is surely not the solution of anything !
Therefore it is also my great ... pleasure to have a living just like many others: a salary of $100.000 a year, a big house, a yacht ...
But I should then probably enjoy such a life in Full ... Awareness ...